Just The Facts Ma’am

Some background:

What I really want to do is dive right into everything I have been thinking about and working on the last couple of months. I want to just get it out of my head and splatter it all out on the page. That is what this blog is for, after all. Before I go skyrocketing off, however, I feel like it makes a lot of sense to spend a little time laying the foundation. Setting up the stories, if you will, and filling in a little background.

So, I am going to start with a little bit about myself. I am 38 years old living in the Midwest. I was married, and have been divorced for a couple of years. I have a very good job, (though it is a little stressful right now,) and am President of the Board for a local nonprofit that I am passionate about. I have a loving boyfriend, a nice, (though old,) house, a sweet dog that I love to death, and a little cabin in the woods. I also have a caring family. Though my father is gone, (he passed away several years ago,) my mother is still well, and I see her fairly often. I have a wonderful sister, brother-in-law, and two adorable neices. I am also fortunate to have an amazing network of incredible people that I am lucky enough to call my friends. All in all, life is very good.

This blog is not to complain about my life. I know that my life is filled with an abundance of riches. This blog is more about finding my purpose. A few years ago, I had a some very focused goals. During that time, I was incredibly intent on my life – and every moment in it. I had to be. (I am sure I will be writing more about this later.) Anyway, when that time of hyper-focus ended, I allowed myself to relax. I decided to take things easy for a bit, and just focus on the day to day. That was okay – I needed that then. In some ways, I still need it now- but I can see a time ahead when that won’t be true. Currently, I am very tied to my life the way it is. I don’t have room for a lot more.  Yet, I see a time in the next year or so when some of these things will lighten up – where I will have a lot more flexibility.

Here is the problem: when it comes to responsibilities, I am like a magnet through iron shavings. I have a tendency to pick up things without even noticing, and then they are almost impossible to shake off. I don’t want to do that mindlessly anymore. What I want to do, and the reason for this blog, is figure out some goals for myself. I want to decide what I want to focus on – rather than letting life choose for me. If I know where I am heading, I will know what to say yes to – and what not to.

Ideally, I would like to have some five and three year goals. I would like to turn those goal into a rough plan for the next few years. I don’t need to set things in granite, I just need to have something I am working towards. I want to figure out some ways to make things a little better, to find things to look forward to. I need to create a plan.

I am not in a rush. This is a journey, and an important one, if I am going to use it to map out 5 years of my life. I am going to let the planning process take however long it takes, and chart it all out here, on Long View Hill.

Long View Hill

Why I started this blog:

I’ve always been someone who enjoys the process of writing.  Over the years I’ve had a number of diaries, journals, notebooks, sketchbooks, legal pads full of scribbles, online blogs and so forth.  The format changed depending on what was available at the time, but intent was the same – to take all these crazy thoughts and whirlwind ideas and get them down on the page somewhere.  Journals have helped me through good times and bad. (Okay, mostly bad.  When life is really good, I’m usually too busy to remember to write!)

I’m starting this blog for a number of reasons.  I’ve been struggling with some of those big life questions – What are my goals?  Who do I want to be?  What do I want to be?  Where am I going? and How the heck am I going to get there?  I’ve been reading a lot, thinking a lot and I’ve gotten to a spot where I need someplace to gather everything together – someplace to make sense of it all.  This isn’t about trying to come up with universal truths or even trying to answer questions for anyone else.  This is about me.

Long View Hill

The “Hill” portion of the name of this blog comes from a lot of places.  I live in an area that is defined by three neighborhoods, all with the name Hill in them.  Where I live: my state, my city and my town all have a way of defining me right now.  It is part of what I am thinking about.

I also chose hill because it fits in a metaphorical sense.  I’m not at all worried about being “over the hill” but I am in the middle part of my life.  Part of what I am defining is what that means to me – what does the past mean, and what does the future hold?

My last name comes into play here, as well.  My last name is based off of my ancestors who apparently built their homes in up in the hills and high places of their mostly flat country.  It was unusual enough that they got names after it, apparently.

Finally, I have this mental image when I think of a view from a hill – not of a guru sitting atop a mountain, but instead me, sprawled out on the side of a hill, laying in the grass, shoes off, looking at the sky, the clouds and world around me.  I am hoping that this blog will help me figure out my own long view from my very own hill.